cant believe that i didnt update my blog for soooo long. many thing happened in my life recently. yes i am stil surviving well. for a short updated.....i been transfered to a new hospital. currently stuck here for set up the unit. am i ok? which is the question everyone asking me. ERM ... ya wat shuld i say more. i am ok. may be ...i am. (pls dont doubt why my expression is kinda weird)
ppl might wonder what we are doing here for NO patient. right. INDEED.... i know. its like a dead place. and without hope ...no light (sob sob).
meanwhile ppl are juz laughing there. i am telling myself that....ms alice...u not going to die here. if u want to die...u need to die proudly. dont let those negative stuff to took away ur passion. i set my mind clear. i believe god wil have a better plan for me.
indeed my heart has a little cut now. which i know this is going forever in my heart. baby sorry for nt gv the best for u and ur parent. thanks for crossing past my life n do stay in my memory forever. i promise to try hard for next round.
good thing happened too....i am having a good healthy lifestyle...yes i having a good exercise habit which is i am totally proud to build it up for long term. got a new dog---> charlie babe. even though he is in my hometown. and my mum took very good care of him.
what else? ERM. the change is start with me. this little tiny one. solo play show.
going to leave everything behind
a brand new place waiting for me...transfer from one place to another place indeed tired. but in my heart i believe God have his way for me... a new hospital a brand new setting a brand new ME.
i like the excitement and challenge. i like the roller coaster that i taken on with my close friend.
even though i love the place that i live now....the workplace i work now...the people that i closer to....
but then i cannot stand in the comfort zone. need to move on. with new chapter.
Good bye to Subang....hello to desa park.
together let us make a difference in desa park city hospital.
i like the excitement and challenge. i like the roller coaster that i taken on with my close friend.
even though i love the place that i live now....the workplace i work now...the people that i closer to....
but then i cannot stand in the comfort zone. need to move on. with new chapter.
Good bye to Subang....hello to desa park.
together let us make a difference in desa park city hospital.
不是所有的再见都能再次相见。你永远不知道，谁会在哪次不经意地跟你说了再见之后，就再也不见。
Not every goodbye makes the next hello closer. It could mean forever.
Random thought: not everything that wil go smoothly as we wish.
Someone that cross my life, one day she wil go on to another pathway of life. She is special to me indeed.
sincerely i wish the best of her. i believe this is another good future that she wil face. u cheer my life up. u make me feel that i can be nice to people that i wan to in the way i wish too. never too fake. and u are the person that believe me that i am real WEIRDo.
Babe... live ur life To MAX. i believe that u wl be EXTRA HAPPY and continue to shine like a STAR. or HOTTIE? :)
Not every goodbye makes the next hello closer. It could mean forever.
Random thought: not everything that wil go smoothly as we wish.
Someone that cross my life, one day she wil go on to another pathway of life. She is special to me indeed.
sincerely i wish the best of her. i believe this is another good future that she wil face. u cheer my life up. u make me feel that i can be nice to people that i wan to in the way i wish too. never too fake. and u are the person that believe me that i am real WEIRDo.
Babe... live ur life To MAX. i believe that u wl be EXTRA HAPPY and continue to shine like a STAR. or HOTTIE? :)
shine over me..olalala
shine over me
I’m older than I am,
I wish you were here
Who am I, who I am
Surrounded by empty spaces
I need love, well, who doesn’t
Stand here
No tides no sand to drown my fears away
And I’ll wait, wait, wait for your love
And I’ll give, give it all
There ain’t no way, no way, the sun don’t shine it hide away
So shine over me
It’s inevitable
Everything around me changes even though I don’t want them to
I will be looking forward to what tomorrow has in store for me
I’m standing here
No tides no sand to drown my fears away
And I’ll wait, wait, wait for your love
And I’ll give, give it all
There ain’t no way, no way, the sun don’t shine it hide away
So shine over me
Crumbled heart
Broken words
I will face obstacles in life…
Somehow this song does reflect my current mood. my fren told me that i changed to more isolated, does anything of them bother me, she asked. i replied that why should i be the one always raise up problem even ppl surround me seem to be comfortable and dont even bother the problem exists. actually this already happened many times, i realised that there is no way i can make ppl understand me unless i duplicate thousand of me and live with thousand of me. so my fren...i choose to be quiet. i will wait for sun shine over me. i choose to step away as i always want to. to prevent myself to get hurt again and me to harm ur mood. there should not be any quarrel and shouting or even crying...coz there wil make no point for all of us coz there is empty love within us. seriously crumbled heart and broken words ....no tide no sand to drown my fears away....
i found another me. heading to somewhere~ olalala~
I’m older than I am,
I wish you were here
Who am I, who I am
Surrounded by empty spaces
I need love, well, who doesn’t
Stand here
No tides no sand to drown my fears away
And I’ll wait, wait, wait for your love
And I’ll give, give it all
There ain’t no way, no way, the sun don’t shine it hide away
So shine over me
It’s inevitable
Everything around me changes even though I don’t want them to
I will be looking forward to what tomorrow has in store for me
I’m standing here
No tides no sand to drown my fears away
And I’ll wait, wait, wait for your love
And I’ll give, give it all
There ain’t no way, no way, the sun don’t shine it hide away
So shine over me
Crumbled heart
Broken words
I will face obstacles in life…
Somehow this song does reflect my current mood. my fren told me that i changed to more isolated, does anything of them bother me, she asked. i replied that why should i be the one always raise up problem even ppl surround me seem to be comfortable and dont even bother the problem exists. actually this already happened many times, i realised that there is no way i can make ppl understand me unless i duplicate thousand of me and live with thousand of me. so my fren...i choose to be quiet. i will wait for sun shine over me. i choose to step away as i always want to. to prevent myself to get hurt again and me to harm ur mood. there should not be any quarrel and shouting or even crying...coz there wil make no point for all of us coz there is empty love within us. seriously crumbled heart and broken words ....no tide no sand to drown my fears away....
i found another me. heading to somewhere~ olalala~
to be the chosen ONE
Right now i am stil in my starting point. seeing a little child go through pain due to the wilm's tumour. can see that he is already used to the pain and there is nothing else that we can do. i realized that no everything wil always go as what we expected to be. the road wil be up and down somehow. i am lucky to able breathing as a normal human being and to have ppl around me to love me.
Deep in my heart, want to give him a pat and telling him that jia u, little one.
Nursing is a noble professional that not everyone that can bear with all the stressful situation. i believe somehow we are the chosen one to be here to cure and care for ppl in need. somehow i want my journey to be the different one. to touch and to make a difference throughout the journey. it wil be tough. i know i wil be there so where.
Deep in my heart, want to give him a pat and telling him that jia u, little one.
Nursing is a noble professional that not everyone that can bear with all the stressful situation. i believe somehow we are the chosen one to be here to cure and care for ppl in need. somehow i want my journey to be the different one. to touch and to make a difference throughout the journey. it wil be tough. i know i wil be there so where.
2nd week of my mentormeeteeship
unbelievable feeling that i am actually step into my nursing career life. somehow or rather, i being lead to work in NICU...something unexpected. previously, i am always thought that working with babies is something nice to heard, but eventually not something that i want to touch on. coz babies are so fragile. need being extra ultimate careful when come to handle with them.
eventually, i am end up with loving it. something new and interesting to learn, due to the physiology changes is totally different from adult. i am fall in love with it.
SO...how is my life recently?? up and down i guess. and i am stil ALIVE.
WORKING PART: I got a good mentor to teach me. and i am glad that i am actually in a good department for grow and SHINE. haha.
REL PART: Moving in with my MCA gangster. we actually had conflict but i think we are doing it quite well in the way of solving the problem. i guess the origin of it must be LOVE. INDEED, I feel i am lucky to have them around. to lean on.
EXTRA PART: received call from Ms CM that i got the something award from MALAYSIA nursing board for getting good result in the nursing board exam. something that out of my expectation. WELL, coz the exam seems easy until everyone out from the exam hall mentioned that we now competitive for HIGHEST MARKS. "i was like WO... HUMAN BEING..." HAPPY for it coz it is for my effort and praise God for such blessing. and make my parent proud and even my lecturer as well.
so yay... JUST BE MYSELF :)
WORKING PART: I got a good mentor to teach me. and i am glad that i am actually in a good department for grow and SHINE. haha.
REL PART: Moving in with my MCA gangster. we actually had conflict but i think we are doing it quite well in the way of solving the problem. i guess the origin of it must be LOVE. INDEED, I feel i am lucky to have them around. to lean on.
EXTRA PART: received call from Ms CM that i got the something award from MALAYSIA nursing board for getting good result in the nursing board exam. something that out of my expectation. WELL, coz the exam seems easy until everyone out from the exam hall mentioned that we now competitive for HIGHEST MARKS. "i was like WO... HUMAN BEING..." HAPPY for it coz it is for my effort and praise God for such blessing. and make my parent proud and even my lecturer as well.
so yay... JUST BE MYSELF :)
NEW
LAST day of my farewell was totally unforgettable. certain unhappy thing is happened. it really changed my mind that people are hardly to be called "trust". many of the things i am asking myself for the reason of friendship? for the origin of it? many ppl telling me tat its just a link of benefit. i cannot deny it coz the reality does show it. lastly the one get hurt will be ME. actually does this friendship meant anything to them>? or even to myself is becomes undefined.
it is hurting for helping those ppl who begging for help, lastly they wil turned back and just walked away with their waving hand free. and i wil be asking myself i can't just leave them and go at that time. and i wil telling all my memory cell to memorize how to self protect inner side, prevent from any loss or damage. at last i stil repeat the same mistake. stubborn me.....
at this stage, until i realise that i cannot make anybody happy, i want to make myself happy and my family 2. who the hell are they to disturb me? walk my way, i dont wan ppl to affect me. as in anything.
JUST.... WALK MY WAY
