Too MUCH

I really stuck with my character. Get completely fed up with it.

When things are happening around me, i still not knowing how to react to it.

I believe that i am just being myself, but ppl around me wil take the benefit out of moi. Even though i know about tat, but i wil stil keep quiet. I dont wanna to voice out my own opinion in order to teach them a meaningful lesson.

Simply i trust that they should know about their act and behaviour. When the things are getting worse, i am stil stuck there. One simple act from them can make me forgive and forget the past. I hate the way i am struggling although i knw what is the correct move. The problem is i dont know how to react ....tat's why i am keep it myself.

Too much restriction Too much barrier Too much fear..WHAT SHOULD I DO TO MAKE IT BETTER? TO HAVE MYSELF BACK?

All about my new life

Everytime i am thinking of CHANGE...

Change to a person who following God in full heart (not half).
Change to a person who can open heart and love people around.
Change to a person who can love myself more.
Change to a person who really moving on the correct track.
Change to a person who can solve my ownself problem.
Change to a person who can do everything independently.
Change to a person who can do something i am really love to.
Change to a person who can shout to the world and help the ppl in need.
Change to ...
Change to ...(never end listing)

There are so much things i wanna to do and so much to share...starting to blog would be a good solution for me to update myself and at the same times always reminding myself. where i am standing now..what have i learn ....who i have met throughout the journey of my life.

Yes. I wanna CHANGE. to a extent where HE is the one leading me. to a extent where I am just a follower of HIM.