i thought u are different from others for all these while.
i forced myself to believe that!
and yet the truth is u are changed or u are remain, no longer the same as before.
the way u are try to keep away from my vision, u trying to hide. i know.
we no longer can share dream, no longer to see dream in bigger view.
the last time u who trigger my heart to believe the real friendship coz we are similar.
i tried to make u to know that u are not invisible, and u are special, but yet
i felt that there is no different whether i exist in ur surrounding.
u telling me that college life is just a part of life process, filled with gossip. and
u dont need anyone coz u are just going to finish and leave this place. i try to show u that life can be better and better if u are NOT surrounded by any restriction. bt yet u are not aware.
i am tried to make the miracle happen and i am tried to keep u as a good fren of mine in my point of view. bt the truth is these all are just going to faded away. between us ? there is nothing left for me to value. ENOUGH is the word that i can find to filled my doubt on u.
life is moving on, and in this journey, u are not the person can enlighten my life. so ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.
AND I keep telling myself without u, i stil can live better. without me, u stil can live ur constant life.
GIVE than TAKE
went back home for 3 days off. it was absolutely relax staying in my hometown. throwing away my trouble and worry, there is nothing left except happiness i realizing that my dad and mom are really getting old wit wrinkles and some newly developed habit " manjong".
sometimes human are just take thing as granted. never satisfied with their needs. or they didnt even know wat is their limit of needs. same goes to me. i taking part of my parent's life away coz they are spend so much of times trying their best to give me a GOOD life.
my dad would spend 8 hours for stream a coconut chicken soup for us and my mum will listen to our achievable but ongoing dream. if i need anything, they will buy the affordable thing for me. during the critical times when i was worrying about my tuition fee, they always tell me tat everything can be solve by money is NOT a problem, the only thing tat is cannot solve by money is a BIG problem. in deep down, they are actually having financial problem.
i always told my frenz tat i had a great parent that give me A BIG HOPE. they neva fail in believe in me. they always seeing thing in big view even though they are not educated person. they always tell me to try, neva give up even though they cannot guide me to there. i stil remember my dad told me that i cannot help u in sponsorship interview but i can bring u there. anywhere that i can find dream and hope, my parent are the one lead me there. is it good to have people to SUPPORT?
now i am growing up.....i realize tat i should be more responsible in GIVE than TAKE.
to be honest. money really cannot buy LOVE. dont ever tink that give money can satisfied everything. do u able to take ur love out and put in action?? action is more important to share ur love. i wonder whether myself would cook for my parent?? or just rather than give them money asking them to stay happy and survive in the later life. thinking of these.....of course i dont want to be tat kind of people....therefore i train myself to SLOOOOOOOOOOW DOWN.
Slowing down ur pathway is just to letting urself to see the surrounding more clearly. city people are just too busy of realizing. everything also wan fast......talk also wan fast....walk also wan fast. if u are reading my blog....i hope u know or realize how much love are u able to give without limit to ur surrounding people?? first...to urself?? do u love urself?? second to ur family?? third to ur fren?? do something special to the people tat u value, ACT IT OUT!!!
sometimes human are just take thing as granted. never satisfied with their needs. or they didnt even know wat is their limit of needs. same goes to me. i taking part of my parent's life away coz they are spend so much of times trying their best to give me a GOOD life.
my dad would spend 8 hours for stream a coconut chicken soup for us and my mum will listen to our achievable but ongoing dream. if i need anything, they will buy the affordable thing for me. during the critical times when i was worrying about my tuition fee, they always tell me tat everything can be solve by money is NOT a problem, the only thing tat is cannot solve by money is a BIG problem. in deep down, they are actually having financial problem.
i always told my frenz tat i had a great parent that give me A BIG HOPE. they neva fail in believe in me. they always seeing thing in big view even though they are not educated person. they always tell me to try, neva give up even though they cannot guide me to there. i stil remember my dad told me that i cannot help u in sponsorship interview but i can bring u there. anywhere that i can find dream and hope, my parent are the one lead me there. is it good to have people to SUPPORT?
now i am growing up.....i realize tat i should be more responsible in GIVE than TAKE.
to be honest. money really cannot buy LOVE. dont ever tink that give money can satisfied everything. do u able to take ur love out and put in action?? action is more important to share ur love. i wonder whether myself would cook for my parent?? or just rather than give them money asking them to stay happy and survive in the later life. thinking of these.....of course i dont want to be tat kind of people....therefore i train myself to SLOOOOOOOOOOW DOWN.
Slowing down ur pathway is just to letting urself to see the surrounding more clearly. city people are just too busy of realizing. everything also wan fast......talk also wan fast....walk also wan fast. if u are reading my blog....i hope u know or realize how much love are u able to give without limit to ur surrounding people?? first...to urself?? do u love urself?? second to ur family?? third to ur fren?? do something special to the people tat u value, ACT IT OUT!!!
