15/12/2009- I can COOK

This week Jessicar left me with bunch of foods. May be she scared that i would starve myself without her. very thoughtful sis. before i going back to my hometown, i need to finished all the foods in the fridge. somemore i promised to cook for Pei Ching. i decided to use Magic Cooking Skill to show them that i CAN cook.

my final PRODUCT ..........(BELOW)
the winning hand is belong to Pei Ching.
well cooking isn't that difficult.
at least Pei Ching is stil alive.

Random pic----> below


Cats live under the our block. actually the kitten have infection on its leg.
i thought this kitten cannot live for long but ...
there is one person send this kitten to clinic for injection.
at last... the kitten is in recovery period.
sometimes, we would tend to stick to the fact and neva think of changing direction.
in fact ...the kitten is only waiting for the chance give from us in order to survive.
i realised that i should not JUMP to conclusion so easily.
may the they are just waiting for a chance to change/ to get inspire.
Miracle could happen in Lord.
since Lord can give us a chance to live/repent...why don't we??




wait for another week!!!

Wait for another week ...then it's my 2 weeks semester break!! YEAH...finally i can go back to my hometown. Miss my family and my popo's cook. haven't actually plan how to spend this 2 weeks...probably just sleep, eat, play and routine agen! even now i cannot stand the boredom in hostel ....i really really need a action plan to eliminate my boredom and activate my "sleeping" enzyme.

next week the semester 1 result will be OUT.I wonder why everyone seeing me only ask about when the result wil be out.... my answer is " HOW DO I KNOW LEI??" lets just hope everyone in my class can pass.

CHILLzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
WUHU......finished my semester 1 exam liao..it was easy than i thought. coz the lecturer gave the tips for structural questions. the most fun part is OSCE which is like some sort of practical exam. they set different stations with different test such as donning and removing sterile gloves, taking blood pressure and etc etc. when i was in the practical exam...it was like testing my heart beat. i cannot even remember what did i do inside each stations. i went in blankly and come out blankly. my hands were automatically move and my mind was dead inside. very fun indeed!! my conclusion is Practice make Perfect.

during the revision week......MY 21st birthday with my family and friends in the hostel. nothing special about my big day except my age is increase.


In fact i feel very boring after the exam, nothing to do except of searching for entertainment.

last sunday after church service...went out with JC it was really tiring and fun. although the shopping mall is full with xmas decorations but i dont have the xmas mood la. on that day...me and JC have spend almost more than 1 and half hour in the LEVIS shop make the handmade pouch thingy.

haha finally i got the chance to expand my creativity. i guess my creativity have blocked by all the scientific stuff. so more we can use the material they provided for us for FREE.
it was supposed to be for charity but in the end.....they took the box away since we made the thing overtime.

the final products that made by us.....

if u are interested on handmade stuff..u can check this out ....she actually can make the thing that exist in ur mind.

http://terompahsurau.blogspot.com/

last day of clinical posting- 14/11/2009

Recently, received many good comments from CIs about my evaluation during clinical posting. of course, very happi for it la. especially got the comments from those STRICT CI. She wrote that i am showing interest toward nursing and good rating also!! not high rates but i am satisfied for it...Even though i am with her only for few days, but she can noticed it.

Sometimes i wil wonder why i should choose nursing? difficult job and "dirty" as well. u need to contact with body fluid of infected patient. u got to be in the front line to help those people that in need. u need to wake up early (around 4.30am) and ironing ur uniforms. u need to behave and act mature to serve people (with ur hidden character). people are telling me that i deserve better than nursing. BUT i can find hundred of reasons that i like nursing so much.

no matter how difficult it is, every time i waking up, i wil told myself i just love my job. and continue ironing my uniform. i even dont know my extend of interest toward this career.

Everything is coming toward me are just smooth with the blessing of LORD. Persistent and hold it tight, my miracle wil come true in one day.

"We are more than conquerors through him who loved us"......with HIM, he wil fight for me.


Exam coming soon.
almost the end of year
time is ticking
NOW
get back to study

CSSD week- 7/11/2209

CSSD - Central Sterile Supply Department. Its function is reprocessed sets and instruments to the operating theatre, wards and clinics. we were posted to there for one week in order to explore to how the sterile stuff is being packed and RECYCLE in hospital system.

what did i do there??
hmm...arrange scissors, learn how to pack the operating sets, seal the sterile pack for certain instruments...etc. (nothing much to be honest)


Mas posing with operating sets.

On top of that, last day of the week i went to decontamination area for WASHing the instruments. i was soo "lucky" since they were fixing the hot pipes on that specific day. the Auto machine for washing the instrument sets cannot be used lo. Then we have to do it manually. BUT STILL nothing much to do there other than WASH and WASH and WASH...


Cuties (Ee Voon, Mas and Siti)


("Chill" while the manager is not around.)

take photo with staffs in CSSD

After a relaxing week in CSSD.....
2 more weeks ..then i have to sit for final exam already........sigh havent start study la....wil be disappear for next 2 weeks.

Annual Dinner - 5/11/2009

YES. All girls in my college were getting ready for the night of nights - our college Annual Dinner 2009.

Its the night of our nightmares
just imagine a bunch of girls were occupy one of our rest room to do the makeover and everyone seems like busy to dress themselves up. OR searching for something else.

Its also the night of our dreams.
Everyone were dressing up very nicely and showed up in the ballroom including CI and lecturer. some HOT babes can be see everywhere. Transformation of 'someone' was really freak me out. afterward, everyone in the ballroom were crazy in taking photos session while waiting for the VIP to come.

The most interesting thing is the ladies is full with people while VIP was delivering their speech.
The most amusing thing is the performances were excellent. Very well done to those people that putting so much effort into it. i sure everyone were enjoying the performances more than FOODs.

Random pictures (below)

me and Sassy Devi

me and sweet wabbit


the only time we put on the masks.

Guna babe and moi


1 Malaysia Group

Count down to final exam ..3 more weeks!!!!!!!!!!


This week, my crosses boost up to 19!! stil got 9 more to get. enjoy the times with my CI since she is very thoughtful and teach us many stuff that we unable to learn from books ---> critical thinking. she didnt even observed me for sponging but she gave me Cross for it.


Next week post to CSSD which means boring week for washing the equipment there. Running assessment next week AND Annual dinner next Thursday. I wanna to finished my A&P topics NEXT WEEK.


Beginning of November....another new start..........

Missing him.....

28/10/2009 Alone or not?


alone or not?

Today i stayed back for the practical in the hospital till 5.00pm. I know ...kinda stupid for staying since hospital not going to pay for my EXTRA hard work.

The reason being is because today my ward dont have CI, and she will only be with us for one more day. so I was decided stay back and wash the popo's hair la...(To get the hair shampoo cross).

so there was a friend of mine came to me and said that i shouldn't stay since i am belong to MORNING shift and said i definitely will become enemy of the Gang. i was like O_____o. after that, i prepared all the stuff and set up everything by my own. The moral of the story is people always being selfish one.

Lord let me have a heart like u can accept them..humble down myself to work with them...with me alone...i nt think i can make it...but in YOU there is nothing too hard for u...thing could changed coz of YOU.

Many many thanx to my dearest sista's support. thank for being understanding and bring the smile to my life. Cheer me up during this STRESS period with your 'cold' joke.

Thank for trying hard to understand ME. make me feel that i am not alone in this world and back to the seeing Lord.

Above is group photo taken in the church. especically...our cat's newest invented pose.

Stress

yes. i am running out of Times. Everyday i tried to set a proper times table for myself to follow. but at last it turned out i am not a good follower indeed. especially i am trying to balance out my times for practical and self studying for exam.

but u know ...after spend all the energy in the ward and come back with the tiring body ...i would choose to sleep for few hours to restore back my chargable status. sigh...i really need a effective study method......or a shortcut may be?

still many cross to get from Clinical instructor. DaMN stress! i really need to pray for something to be changed for this few weeks.

Ok just here to write a short post now ...get back to study my anatomy and physiology- Reproductive system and memorize the menstrual cycle also.

Don't give up

I copy this from someone's blog, which i found it quite inspiring. So, just thought of sharing this here. :)


Read on..

One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me....

"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth.. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In year three, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.

But I would not quit.

In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern, it was seemingly small and insignificant....But just 6 months later, the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.
"

He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time when you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots".

" Remember. I DID NOT quit on the bamboo even when it did not produce any things useful earlier on. Similarly, I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others, "He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?, "I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.

Remember.. Never, Never, Never Give up.

For the Christian Prayer is not an option but an opportunity.

Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is, tell the problem how Great the Lord is!

******************************************************************

Heavens door open this morning, God asked me...
"My CHILD, what can I do for you?"

And I said, "Daddy, please protect and bless the one reading this message."

God smiled and answered, "Request granted."

P.S: You never know when GOD is going to bless you! Good things happen when you least expect them to!

17/10/2009


丁当 - 亲人

别打开 礼物的缎带
最初充满期待 最后都腐败
别打开 午夜的电台
别让情歌反覆再愚弄

而爱 并没有教给我生存
只教我交易虚荣给天真
可是爱 让我们变成陌生人
却变不了更高尚的灵魂

不要吻我 只要抱着我
不要爱我 做我的亲人
把手借我 一天一分钟
做我最亲密的亲人
不是谁的情人 谁的某某某

就算我 全身湿透透
我也不再被谁 牵着鼻子走
如果我 还握住拳头
可能我怕我的梦飞走

而爱 并不如你想的万能
不能让我们不再战争
可是爱 连慈悲也没多慈悲
谁爱越深越容易被牺牲

不要吻我 只要抱着我
不要爱我 做我的亲人
把手借我 一天一分钟
让我还敢做我的梦
做我梦中伟大的微笑的英雄
不要吻我 只要抱着我
不要爱我 做我的亲人
把手借我 一天一分钟
让我还敢做我的梦
做我梦中伟大的微笑的英雄

14/10/2009

After spending 2 weeks in clinical posting, the only word can used to describe my feeling is "TIRED". Being a nurse is really really not easy, it required completely focused on the patient, design a nursing care plan for them, follow doctor to do round, give correct medication to the patient, send them to the certain scan and etc etc etc....

The only thing that frustrating me is i only able to get one CROSS for CI at the moment. To be honest, i am really want the cross from them la...i tried to explain to them we only have 4 weeks in the clinical posting before entering for final exam. some more, exclude one week that i need to work in CSSD.

Well..let's hope everything is under control since there is one above all father looking after me...

Despite all above mentioned, i have spend one of my weekend with my friends. we went to midvalley for search the annual dinner mask. it was very fun. since we were going out as a "1 MALAYSIA" group. Therefore they decided another shopping round, we should wear the same clothes, same shoes, bring same bag ..even wear same panties. Totally weird idea.

Raya Open House-03/09/2009

After the hectic FON formative test, we have been invited to Liza's open house. Her house is just nearby our college, we decided to walk to there (Exercise ma!).
Above are the 2 ladies on the way to Liza's house. Sweet posers!
we did have a wonderful times there. since everything is FOC (free of charged), they also bungkus some of the foods as well. (noticed above pic)

Before

After...Left for nothings..



Under the same umberalla (metaphor), i really enjoy the moment that having them as my closest friends especially Izzati. it's difficult to find someone that understand you and willing to share knowledge as well. Hope our friendship wil last forever. =)

Life as a student nurse- 26/09/2009


Ta ta ta ta da....A bunch of gals from Group 03/2009. this photo took before we went for clinical posting. Can feel our excitement?? They even asked me to wear the cap for taking this photo. O_O'' (no need la..)

Sport day pic...we took this after having our lunch. Tat is where we get our energy from. As you can see, most of them are Red team. N...These are ONLY 3 guys in our class who are taking diploma in nursing except...The guy in pink shirt is belong to Medical laboratory group...

another pic from sport day!!! well sport day wasn't tat fun since we didnt join any activities except of taking photos on the field.

To summarize the first half of the semester 1, everyone trying to fit into each other. each one of us come from different background. At this point, we have the fate to be together in a team. Even though conflict might arise, i even scolded one of my group members due to certain incident la. Difficult problem might come out of my expectation when trying to figure out how to deal with different personality of ppl and studying with other races to achieve same dream. but i learn many lessons from Above all God. i believe that things is not happened randomly, all are planned by HIM. so this journey i wanna be with him ...PRAY AND LIVE WITH HIM. and PRAISE HIM.


Life is short... and it's not about us. Eternity is long... and it's all about God.

Finally.

Yes finally i got a brand new phone even though it's not so good as others. but still it got many features especially Xpress music and kinda good camera (compared to my previous phone).

after for so long.... my dream finally come true.

Now i cannot find a excuse for not updating my blog liao.

today is 24th September 2009. still have quarter of the year to go!!! i really hope i can stop the time but i couldn't.

nothing much to do in my hostel really. Everyone still on Hari Raya Break. Revising for next week 4 test papers.

i still havent yet start revise for Anatomy and physiology. what can i do other than sit on my hot spot chair to revise???

this week not going to church, feel a bit guilty since i promised to God that i will tried my best to listen to him. AWWW...Sorrrrrrrrrrrry.
sometimes, i really want to sacrifice my study times for worshiping God. but my heart insisted that i couldn't afford to waste more times.

Feeling recharged after came back from hometown. hope this energy can last till semester break.

Deeper in LOVE

There is a longing only you can fill
A ranging tempest only you can still
My soul is thirsty Lord, to know you a I'm known
Drink from your river that flows before your throne

#Chorus
Take me deeper, deeper in love with you
Jesus hold me close to your embrace
Take me deeper, deeper that I've ever been before
I just want to love you more and more
how I long to be deeper in love.

Sunrise to sunrise I will seek your face
Drawn by the spirit to the promise of your grace
my heart has found in you, a HOPE that will abide
Here in your presence, forever satisfied.




Prayer: Lord take me deeper ..deeper in love with you. I just want to see your presence and to build a close relationship with you. i know that a mankind's strength is limited. but lord u are just there to give strength and waiting for me. once again let the holy spirit enter my life and i wanna to shine for you. and i will start my journey with you as well. Amen.

Personality Test

As I was answering those questions in this website,I found out that the answer given was QUITE accurate about myself.Here goes the description:

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Too MUCH

I really stuck with my character. Get completely fed up with it.

When things are happening around me, i still not knowing how to react to it.

I believe that i am just being myself, but ppl around me wil take the benefit out of moi. Even though i know about tat, but i wil stil keep quiet. I dont wanna to voice out my own opinion in order to teach them a meaningful lesson.

Simply i trust that they should know about their act and behaviour. When the things are getting worse, i am stil stuck there. One simple act from them can make me forgive and forget the past. I hate the way i am struggling although i knw what is the correct move. The problem is i dont know how to react ....tat's why i am keep it myself.

Too much restriction Too much barrier Too much fear..WHAT SHOULD I DO TO MAKE IT BETTER? TO HAVE MYSELF BACK?

All about my new life

Everytime i am thinking of CHANGE...

Change to a person who following God in full heart (not half).
Change to a person who can open heart and love people around.
Change to a person who can love myself more.
Change to a person who really moving on the correct track.
Change to a person who can solve my ownself problem.
Change to a person who can do everything independently.
Change to a person who can do something i am really love to.
Change to a person who can shout to the world and help the ppl in need.
Change to ...
Change to ...(never end listing)

There are so much things i wanna to do and so much to share...starting to blog would be a good solution for me to update myself and at the same times always reminding myself. where i am standing now..what have i learn ....who i have met throughout the journey of my life.

Yes. I wanna CHANGE. to a extent where HE is the one leading me. to a extent where I am just a follower of HIM.