Heart after you: entering into "partial" real world

How is my first week posting in hospital?? One word to describe sad. First day were assigned to do dressing for a patient. Firstly I wasn’t allowed to open the wound and the wound chart is only written “toe side”. I wasn’t expecting the wound is huge. After prepare all the things, patient was sending to imaging. Luckily didn’t open the wound yet.

After that I entered to the patient room, once I open the wound I only realized that I didn’t bring enough cotton for clean the wound. The moral of the story is………………………..ask the STAFF NURSE how is the wound before starting the dressing and inform the staff nurse u are going to in charge for the wound dressing for respective patient. And most importantly assessment and planning is damn important ……….bring extra equipment e.g gauze and cottons.

Back to the story…..so this is supposed to be the second times dressing, CI expected me to do it without her instruction. But the wound is very badly inflamed and slough so I really not sure how I should start so I did it in circular round for one swab. Then I get scolded for not knowing how to clean and not being confident and being told that I LOVE to argue. (second CI told me this)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AM I?? (questionable). Without any instruction, she took over after half way of dressing. SIGH~

After that I have to document in wound chart. Normally I would write in a piece of paper the inspection that I have seen but she expected me to write without her double confirmation. then she told me that she is not here to teach me Grammar. I was WTH? AT last I still say thanks to her for teaching me, nevertheless she is really skillful. I guess she only want me to be confident coz being a staff nurse I must trained myself to do things without supervision of others. Look for the bright side……………I still able to stay strong. At least I really thank her from my heart lar…………not for the sake of “pai ma pi”. So whatever is it lar.

Next day……………………………..more things are coming up. Get scolded from another ward manager for Nothing other than my blur face irritating her. I am just returned the infusion pump and ask her where I should acknowledge and put back the infusion pump and she ignored. Afterward she came and told me off. I really wonder she can just tell ppl off like that. It really sets a good example for me not being such a person like HER!!!!!!!!!!! Then get scolded for not knowing what is jelonet………….at least I learnt something new today. Went to another ward for OFFERING a procedure to their side of ppl………then CI replied that “do u think I am free for doing so?”Great?

Second day is like get scolded from many ppl and busy for in charging for my wing. Leg pain but I still hope tmr would be better day even though how scary it would be. I have to choose to “ENJOY” it coz this is real world that I am going to enter once I graduated. At this moment, my heart still can afford to take the stress and I really don’t dare to call my parent and inform them. I might burst out and crY. Gonna STAY STRONG AND STRONGER….