Self- Fish

well today i felt i did a very bad thing. yes indeed i did a very very bad thing. to my dearest fren. first time seeing her cry in front of me after all these years. i admit that i am cold heart than her. coz i must learn to be strong start from now. in the reality, i am learning myself to be independent. coz my character is a soft heart person, and i am always expect ppl to be good, no intention to do mean thing.

throughout my studies, i learn that ppl are selfish. i am always being hurt by ppl who is i being nice.i learn that ppl only get benefit from u without paying u back. YES love is no barrier, expect nothing in return. I KNOW. but i can choose who i like, rite? from there, i get less pain.i am prevent myself to get pain.

for example, why ppl are expect us to prepare everything for them? why can they hv initiative to prepare n to ask and to get the good outcome, rite? sorry my heart not big enough for ppl to step over. and i have no times to care what are u talking back of me. coz ur word is meaningless toward me.

life is moving on. this is my life. i wil want to make it better. for the ppl that i wan to. there are more ppl that i should have care and think about.